stop it

i ' ve been hurt enough . and i decided to move on . imperfection is who i am which he can ' t accept . and it really takes time to change . i ' m trying but i ' m not showing it . and he misunderstand and kept hurting me . i 'm sorry but i can 't take it anymore . remember ,. my heart is still with you ..

p / s : if you ' re the ' he ' who ' s reading this ,. i miss you and i love you a lot ~

i miss you

i miss you .
i miss your text messages .
i miss your phone calls .
i miss your voice .!
i miss your laughter !
i miss those eyes !
and those lips ~
i miss the way you scolded me .
and the way we talked on the phone until 3 am ~!
i want you to sing for me
i miss the way you lied to me .
i miss your body scent .
i miss your kiss .
i miss your touch ~
ohh .. it feels so real until now .
i miss you .
i don ' t wanna forget you !
i need you .
what a regret ~
i miss you . i miss you . i miss you  ~

every memories of these broke me into tears .

u were supposed to be mine . please come back !!
i feel so stupid ~!

take a step forward and look up !

you know that you ' re weak ... 

- find the strength !!

you know that you ' re scared ...

-find the courage !!

you know that you ' re down ...

-find the will !!

you know that you ' re hurt ...

-find the cure !!

you know that you ' re alone ...

-find someone !!

how to find those things ??

everything is always in you ! pray to GOD to help in your steps ~ 

kaspersky !

i thought was having problem with this newly bought Kaspersky Internet Security 2011 

bought with the price RM 160

when i started to install this program , i faced a problem whereby i can ' t connect to the internet .! 

wtFISH ??

after ' diagnosing ' the problem ,. ( limited internet connection due to dotA played by my brother ) and oh yeahhh !!!

installation process succeeded !

that ' s all i guess . LOL

btw , the kaspersky is soooo effective until my brother was banned from online ' ing because he got caught from my father due to some personal reasons ~~ *not porn okay ?? LOL

talking to the moon :- BRUNO MARS

I know you're somewhere out there

Somewhere far away

I want you back

I want you back

My neighbours think

I'm crazy

But they don't understand

You're all I have

You're all I have

[Chorus]

At night when the stars

Light on my room

I sit by myself

Talking to the Moon

Try to get to You

In hopes your on

The other side

Talking to me too

Or Am I a fool

Who sits alone

Talking to the moon

I'm feeling like

I'm famous

The talk of the town

They say

I've gone mad

Yeah

I've gone mad

But they don't know

What I know

Cause when the

Sun goes down

Someone's talking back

Yeah

They're talking back

[Chorus]

At night when the stars

Light on my room

I sit by myself

Talking to the Moon

Try to get to You

In hopes your on

The other side

Talking to me too

Or Am I a fool

Who sits alone

Talking to the moon

Ahh...Ahh...Ahh..

Do you ever hear me calling

Ho Hou Ho ho Hou

'Cause every night

I'm Talking to the Moon

Still try to get to You

In hopes your on

The other side

Talking to me too

Or Am I a fool

Who sits alone

Talking to the moon

Ohoooo...

I know you're somewhere out there

Somewhere far away

sweet lies ?

Dear ,

I will never forget the days we once had ,
The days when you were everything to me ,
My mind used to tell me that we will be together forever ...

But now I realized that it was all a big dream.

The feelings I have for you will never fade .
I wish I could take back that one regretful day .
The day that I willingly let you slide from my arms .
Never did I think of the astonishing regrets .

But for now .,
I'll sit silently .,
remembering all the memories we once shared .

Everyday ,  my love grows much stronger ,
Hoping that one day you'll feel the same ,
And put back the pieces ,
of my broken heart ...

Take care

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couldn ' t help myself crying this morning when i read the message . 


i found that all the highlighted word were just fake , fake ,. FAKE !!
even those words were sweet though , but they really stabbed me to the heart inside because the sender doesn ' t even mean a single word he said .


p/s : take back your words ,. i don ' t need it </3

the name ' s MUMU

i don ' t really know what to write at first as the title came popping out of the sudden .

LOL .

okay ,. maybe i should tell how ' MUMU ' became my nickname =))

started back then when i was form 5 . an old friend of mine ( who ' s now isn ' t ) find it hard to pronounce my name . at first i hated it so much because i find it kinda embarrassing as it is similar to a ...

 but then , as my classmates and teachers calling me MUMU , yeahh ,. i ' ve started to getting used to it  =D

 the second reason is that i find it really ANNOYING when someone just could not get my name right . as if it ' s so hard to pronounce . *sighhh

the proof :

• my grandma ( mom ' s side ) couldn ' t not pronounce my name correctly since i was born until now =..=''
• most chinese that 's a new friend also couldn ' t get my name right and it takes about a week or so to remember it . =X

okay . that ' s it for the history class about my nickname . =D

just some additional infos .. ( not compulsory ) 

my other nicknames called by families or friends :

mun , moon , ano , anone ,.... etc

purposely put it small because its kinda embarrassing .