stupid act ?

maybe i ' m  just fed up with that bloody behavior . sometimes i wonder why i haven ' t move on with a new life . because i ' m stupid just learning how to forget someone who means so much to me :')

                                 i wish i could just

but every time i tried ,.. it just gets harder and  harder !

believe me , if only he knew how deeply i felt for him , maybe he wouldn ' t do what he did to me now.

sadly , when i gave my only  to him , my all ,. he never appreciated it like i did for him . 

yeah ,. i realized that we ' re heading down . 

but SHIT ! he didn ' t even give a f*cking damn about it ! ( f*ck yaa for that ! )

 i guess he just don ' t know what i had in mind about him . *sighh

i have big dreams . but the most important dream i had was being together . 

FOREVER !

 now it will just remain as a dream .

**********

enough of the regrets . * WHY ? * because i ' ve put a stop for everything =..=

" what did i do ? "

-> i forbid him from calling or text me ever again ( more to get out of my life )

** shit ! i wished i hadn ' t send him that bloody text message . i was so sad because he actually took it quite well and it ' s like a small matter to him . doesn ' t he know that he 's my world ?? my everything ?!

 (( big hope huh ? doesn ' t matter . i always messed up things because i ' m so childish ))

                             

duhh ,. maybe he just got himself with some other hot chicks . * pheww  ~ that ' s why i don ' t have any place in his heart anymore . F*uck that bloody bitch !

 SOOOO ,...

i don ' t wanna wait anymore because 

and i ' m afraid if i keep on WAITING ,..

i ' ll just end up like this !!! 

p/s : loving you was hard at first . but why when i totally fell for you ,. you make it easy to let go . every pieces of my heart is breaking . thank you .

woOpsiEe ~ i ' m sorry my dear blog ;D

dear beloved blog .
 i ' m sorry you got left out . it was not on purpose ;D
 it ' s just that my brain was not working quite well and i always ran out of ideas on what to blog and i ' m  being a damn busy student when i started studying .
 ~ CHEERS ~

okey .. there ' s this guy who always makes me go crazy whenever i think of him

 ( because i used to love him and loving him is like loving a shadow).

 now ,. of course i don ' t wanna let this keep on going . so i wanna change ,. for my own good :| - i hope soo -

sooo THE TO DO LIST ;-

1. instead of  HOPING ...

why not... 

get a GOOD DAMN LIFE and enjoy the coffee ;)

2. stop CARING for other ' s heart 

but sometimes we have to be SELFISH !

3. STOP WAITING ...

because waiting is just SO NOT WORTH IT . just let go .

4. forget those HAPPY TIMES ' we ' used to be together

and stay free =)

4. ERASING .

5. before acting ......

THINK first !

6. STOP PRETENDING  something that isn ' t gonna happen

this is reality ! FOR GOD SAKE ~

FORGET THE WORD

stop it

i ' ve been hurt enough . and i decided to move on . imperfection is who i am which he can ' t accept . and it really takes time to change . i ' m trying but i ' m not showing it . and he misunderstand and kept hurting me . i 'm sorry but i can 't take it anymore . remember ,. my heart is still with you ..

p / s : if you ' re the ' he ' who ' s reading this ,. i miss you and i love you a lot ~

i miss you

i miss you .
i miss your text messages .
i miss your phone calls .
i miss your voice .!
i miss your laughter !
i miss those eyes !
and those lips ~
i miss the way you scolded me .
and the way we talked on the phone until 3 am ~!
i want you to sing for me
i miss the way you lied to me .
i miss your body scent .
i miss your kiss .
i miss your touch ~
ohh .. it feels so real until now .
i miss you .
i don ' t wanna forget you !
i need you .
what a regret ~
i miss you . i miss you . i miss you  ~

every memories of these broke me into tears .

u were supposed to be mine . please come back !!
i feel so stupid ~!

take a step forward and look up !

you know that you ' re weak ... 

- find the strength !!

you know that you ' re scared ...

-find the courage !!

you know that you ' re down ...

-find the will !!

you know that you ' re hurt ...

-find the cure !!

you know that you ' re alone ...

-find someone !!

how to find those things ??

everything is always in you ! pray to GOD to help in your steps ~ 

kaspersky !

i thought was having problem with this newly bought Kaspersky Internet Security 2011 

bought with the price RM 160

when i started to install this program , i faced a problem whereby i can ' t connect to the internet .! 

wtFISH ??

after ' diagnosing ' the problem ,. ( limited internet connection due to dotA played by my brother ) and oh yeahhh !!!

installation process succeeded !

that ' s all i guess . LOL

btw , the kaspersky is soooo effective until my brother was banned from online ' ing because he got caught from my father due to some personal reasons ~~ *not porn okay ?? LOL

talking to the moon :- BRUNO MARS

I know you're somewhere out there

Somewhere far away

I want you back

I want you back

My neighbours think

I'm crazy

But they don't understand

You're all I have

You're all I have

[Chorus]

At night when the stars

Light on my room

I sit by myself

Talking to the Moon

Try to get to You

In hopes your on

The other side

Talking to me too

Or Am I a fool

Who sits alone

Talking to the moon

I'm feeling like

I'm famous

The talk of the town

They say

I've gone mad

Yeah

I've gone mad

But they don't know

What I know

Cause when the

Sun goes down

Someone's talking back

Yeah

They're talking back

[Chorus]

At night when the stars

Light on my room

I sit by myself

Talking to the Moon

Try to get to You

In hopes your on

The other side

Talking to me too

Or Am I a fool

Who sits alone

Talking to the moon

Ahh...Ahh...Ahh..

Do you ever hear me calling

Ho Hou Ho ho Hou

'Cause every night

I'm Talking to the Moon

Still try to get to You

In hopes your on

The other side

Talking to me too

Or Am I a fool

Who sits alone

Talking to the moon

Ohoooo...

I know you're somewhere out there

Somewhere far away